It’s been a long time since I have written from my heart

It’s been a long time since I wrote from the heart,
never been more frustrated , could not find
the words to write, my head and heart could
not understand what’s has gone wrong, I covered
it up with well, trying to pretend I did not care,
I filled my time doodling and doing nothing about
it, started becoming a like a couch potato, after
a while you get to learn to from the start, as if
someone opened your eyes for the first time,
trying to reach out for help, l need to get back
to the top,I am doing this for myself, my priorities
has to change, I love to write, it’s my way to
talk to others through my poetry , I cannot let
that go, my heart was pounding as I am so
scared, it took a lot of deep searching and
finding my soul again, I truly felt lonely in my
heart,there is so many peoples poetry better
than mines,I been here before, I know the only
way is going to be way hard , yet I have to restart
from somewhere, searching deep in my heart
and soul and building my way out of the hole,
hope my poems one day would be written from
my heart again the sad thing is I that I
don’t think I will be good enough anymore