I been hiding too long and call it being lost

I been hiding too long and calling it
lost

I feel like a girl without a face, I don’t
know how long I been hiding my pain,
Somehow have lost my self,

I feel very emotionless, had to break my
silence cause I am a feel I am at a breaking
point, I been hiding aimlessly for so long,

I kept telling myself this is the way to stay alive,
hiding , wishing, dreaming of a cure as I am in a
lot of of pain, my whole body being so stiff, I did
not value myself so I was hiding for a long time ,
never felt so lost in myself

I was hiding in self building cocoon, wanted to
turn up the lights, by opening my eyes, I spoke
out, cause felt so lost, did not know which to turn ,
I was hiding my emotions from every one , and
it was getting harder ,

My emotion has been bottled up for too long
hard to hide behind a smile, and I thought I was
going to explode, it is really hard, have got to
the end of hiding

The tears in my eyes was getting obvious and
my pain starting to show, I tired to be strong,
and practical but cannot hide anymore , I feel
very lost, , which road belongs to me, where do I
fit in this life