Black out

I am sorry for what i said before I black out
those memories from my mind, I try to remember
where I went wrong, but everything is blacked out
from my mind,I made a lot of mistakes but that’s a
different story ,I just about remembered who I was,
I am not angry with the people who tried to help me
but they did not know me,I blacked out on different drugs ,
till the doctors found out the right one, it took time, and
what I could remember , I was way too embarrassed , some
moments I cannot even remembered, that’s the first and
last time I black out anything from my mind, till I was allowed
to go out side, my health had deteriorated but in the end it got
better , too late to the friends I lost and honoured to still
have those friends who stood by me, nothing good ever comes
when you have an blackout, it’s like part of your memory
missing from your mind, of what I remember I wish I can
block all of them out, am glad my health got better , I was
allowed back home to fully recover, that was 3 years ago
and I still cannot what had hit me honestly , it took ne 6 month to be able to handle my depression