Missing you

All day long, sitting by the door waiting
and counting the minutes for you of both to
come home ,if for a reason comes a day and we
cannot be together,keep me in your heart
and I will stay there forever, although I
smile and seem to be care free ,there is no one
who misses you more like me,I want to apologies
for letting you down, I can not follow from my
end and for that I am very sorry,I hate letting
anyone down specially my own sons,but letting
you go your own ways , it’s hard , I miss those little
things we did together , like the stupid smiles
we gave each other while send each text, everyone
tells me,you have to be strong to let go, they don’t
see me sobbing in to your pillow and asking the
universe to watch out for both of you, I sometimes I
wish you were still small,not the handsome , strong
tall young men, as you are today, as seasons come and
go and goes ,our children grow, to my sons I am very proud
of you both, for all the thoughtful things you do so I have
to let you go with a blessing from God,and I am so proud
and honoured to be both your mom , am always here with
open arms